I lost my compact. I cannot hide from myself that I have had too much sugar and not enough play. I fooled myself to thinking my skin was even and smooth. It isn’t at least not always. Life is not even and smooth at least not lately. Why do I seek perfect and not accept what is real? This pursuit has left me unsatisfied and unwillingness to see that every thing is fine. It gets messy here sometimes. I get messy sometimes.